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I can't find the words to say anything.
I am feeling like I ran out of gas with my energy and my faith so if you can forgive me for not being as  quick with my posting... I did write something in regards to 9/11 and what my family did...but I ran out of gas...

How am I doing at nearly 26weeks With baby Sarah... No sinus infection... Just she gets really active at night... I really can't sleep and with her punching my bladder It's quite painful...
Iam really not going to apologize about it...I am NOT that Duggar lady in AR who has 19 kids. I ADORE my children but I am not a real fan of being pregnant. Something about my losses/ and time in the NICU took my innocence away, that and I feel like I am going to be sick the whole time  and my anxiety about everything just tends to peak out.
Add in the recent genetic events with Jonathan and I and I''m simply worn out.
Kudos to the genetics doc for trying to get me into see the perinatologist. It was declined due to the fact the OB needs to do it and he's just not. I found a OB practice down at the University of South Carolina and if we don't see anythng happen I will call them... We need to see progress. We have been told  things need to be established earlier, rather than later. we all agree, just not my OB and that's not sitting right with anyone.
I have folks ready to go with me and punch him who've been with me through Jonathan's  nicu stay and the last pg with Daniel...
Well, That's all from me. For now