Remembering Christy

This is Christy (also known as Screamingbird for those who knew her on Pregnancy After Loss and the Grad board).
I've known her (without actually meeting her in person) for almost 6 years. I met her on WebMD on one of their forums after I miscarried Samuel. She was one of the first people I got to know.
Like me she was there because she had suffered through a miscarriage. I met a ton of my other friends through the same place the same way. These are my PAL mommies. We've gone on to have cherished children, and grown to share a great deal of friendship.
To be honest I probably can credit my friends advice and support for the kind of parent I am
. We have all shared so much of our lives with each other. We've laughed together and wept and got angry when things were going on with our closest friends.
Christy has a little girl she fought for to even give birth to...I remember when she was put on bedrest.
She had her and her daughter Sarai became a cherished child to this community as do every child in our community.
2 years ago Christy was diagnosed with AML (a form of Lukemia). We watched her fight that disease with everything she had and found herself in remission.
Fast forward to nearly a month ago, when she found out she was sick again with Lukemia. 
As a friend and part of the community we all readied ourselves and rallied together to help her fight.
She went through a round of Chemo and shaved her head (more as a symbolic thing to say this aint going to take my hair or anything else "I got this")
three weeks ago as she was recovering from Chemo and getting ready to go get her bone marrow transplant, she got a fungal lung infection. Her immune system was low due to chemo so although normal people could have easily fought it off, something else happened.
Unfortunately nearly 2 weeks ago the lung infection weakened her heart, and she had a couple of cardiac arrests and passed from this world.
This rocked the PAL mom community to the core. I am certain my feelings are shared to a certain extent. This was a real shock. Everyone who knew her thought she's got this licked. she's going to bounce back.
The only thing is...
She DIDN'T.
And now there's a 4 year old girl (who was adored by her mom) without her mom.

Being a mom with kids around the same age as hers, I immediately bawled for a while, hugged my kids and thought about what would happen to my kids if something like this happened to me.
I guess it's time to go do both a will and a living will. No one wants to think about stuff like this.

It would be impossible to say we are not grieving. We all are and I believe that although she's not in pain and in a better place, she's not here with us.

She is in God's glory. Someday we'll see her again along with the babies that are there with her that we all never had a chance to meet. We'll see her again... For real and she's probably playing scrabble and going streaking through the streets of heaven.
I just want to tell heaven you took another of my friends. a GREAT one. Rest in Peace Christy. We got it.

I am officially and you'll have to excuse me pissed at cancer. I hate you! Stop taking my friends, my family and most of all I hate you for separating moms and their children, and children from their mothers. Both of these totally suck. Please God, I know you hear my prayers find a cure for this horrible thing called cancer. Thanks.

Trina (who is hugging her kids)

My 200th Post- Welcome To Texas

Welcome to my 200th post.
Welcome to Dallas/Fort Worth, TX.

We completed our move in 2 very difficult phases.
First we got a majority of what we owned into a 14 foot trailer. This was a very time consuming and energy consuming task. Even more so in more than 100 degree weather. The rest was either given away, put on pallets to be sent to the retail store that Andrew is working for or sent to a friend's house to be shipped to me later. 
Because our children are very important to us and we were almost certain  that they were feeling the stress of our move we decided with our family friends that it was best if all of the kids and myself traveled via airplane to our destination. This would prevent the pain of traveling for a long time with small children (2 of which are in diapers) and it would also make more room in the vehicle.
We are close family friends with a friend of ours who was able to use her buddy passes and we flew American Airlines. Thank you Cynthia... Our hearts are very grateful for your generosity.  It took a few hours to get on a flight but once we were on, we eventually were on our way... The plane was full of families of Boy scouts. Some were in uniforms..
Both Jonathan and Sarah fell asleep on the plane as soon as we too off. Daniel was a true handful between taking off his seat belt, and trying to take off his clothes and go streaking on the airplane.all whilst being loud and comical.Many people stated that I was really brave for flying with 3 kids.  NO I was INSANE  for flying standby with 3 kids. I was brave for carrying it out. I should be awarded the mommy badge of honor.

Thank you to Jennifer and Jonathan W. and Barbara (also known as Babz and sometimes my anonymous commenter)and  George P.- Barbara hosted us at her home and took us to the airport. We are really grateful for the southern breakfast you made for us because it was after 6:30 pm when  we landed in Texas.
Major thanks to all that came and helped, lent prayer or emotional support.

Andrew left a few days later and drove across several southern states. It took him a day and a half. to get here.

Thanks to a friend's and God's providence, we hired professional movers we stumbled upon whilst driving around our apartment complex. This was a independently owned local company and not a major chain. The owner worked on every job. They were all very nice and within 2 hours all of our stuff was in our third floor apartment. This would have taken Andrew and our friend Brooks 3 weeks in this weather.  And it was well more than worth what we paid for them.  I will never move without movers again! I just wish we had this on the SC side of our move, It would have been much faster..

Here is a picture I took on my phone last night. I hate my new phone. I had to give up my Blackberry Bold. I loved that phone.
The trailer is now back on craigslist for 2600. and Andrew will be looking for another cheap but reliable car to drive himself to work.

Prayer requests- We will be taking Daniel to the School district office here to get his speech assessed to see if he needs speech therapy.  He's not talking very well.
We will also be looking for a great pediatrician. and we need to do this in the next couple of days. We've had a few really rough nights with Sarah whining and crying. While I believe  she's beginning to cut her first tooth, I'd love to rule out other things.

Don't think that for a minute I wasn't going to mention a friend to a lot of my friends of mine... Christy lost her battle with Lukemia on the Friday after I arrived here.  She left behind a 4 year old daughter, a husband and a step daughter who just delivered a healthy baby girl (so she became a grandmother during her last days of life)...
We are all grieving the loss of this friend/sister.
I will be writing in my next post about this.
Be blessed