I wouldn't Trade it

Living with  my kids from day to day. Some days are stellar. Everyone is so happy, getting along. A few hugs and kisses make everything even sweeter.
There have been more than a few really difficult days, when I've been dealing with behavior from Jonathan, trying to correct Daniel hoping he understands what he did. and hoping Sarah's development is moving along..
There is also the whole thing of therapy, and a pediatrician. Both amaze me at how frustrated  and sad I feel for my kids, who are supposed to be helped by these "professionals" and their behavior, but in the end it seems we were all born in the wrong place or born the wrong whatever. BALONEY SANDWICH.
 I can't live with any regrets about what I did was the best thing for them or not.  It's impossible to go into the past and change anything. It's not ever going to be possible.  I have to make the best decisions based on the information I have,even if it means digging for it myself.
I wouldn't trade this experience for anything because I cannot. I love these kids more than life, and if I could I would take their place if I could.
The only thing is they have to experience life and learn  to adapt to the challenges in front of them. They have to stumble and fall to learn to walk.  They have to be a little bit wobbly at first but once they learn  to balance, will find it easier to walk and run.
Yes, most days lately at my house find one or both my kids , sounding like they are learning english as a second language (because of their language delays their brain has been structured to think english is very hard).

On another note on Saturday last...Sarah took her first steps!!!!!!!! we are all over the moon... and when she did this there were instant cheers from her loyal cheering section Jonathan, Daniel and mommy. She gave me the biggest grin as she took a play vacuum and toddled off with more steps.

Jonathan is within a couple of days of losing his first tooth. For a six year old this is big. He can't wait to lose it.  He has been wiggling it with his tongue.

We have decided not to move, although we have physical challenges with the kids  and their low muscle tone(especially Jonathan) ... I've been carrying Sarah up and down 3 floors of stairs and she is getting to the point where she is too heavy.  We will be saving money to put down on a down payment for a house or another apartment somewhere else closer to Andrew's work at The Container Store. We were going to be charged another extra hundred dollars a month for the privilege of not having 3 flights of stairs to clime in 105 degree heat dragging at least one child.

Andrew is  training for a position that seems to be changing  for the second shift that is growing. He is totally loving that and that is just Andrew's personality to have him create his own position.

Daniel although it's  almost been two weeks has been constantly talking about the Birthday party he and I  attended at a place that had a bounce house with a slide. He simply can't stop talking about it.  We try not to roll our eyes too much as this was a great memory for him, but we need some ideas of other things we can do with him to create memories that will be better than the great one that he has.  Please for the LOVE of all things SANE MAKE HIM stop this ONE story.

Okay maybe you're laughing now...but realize just how blessed you are.
Blessings